Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Love the one you're with

I try. I really do try. But, hmmm, how do I say this without sounding ungrateful? City living is getting me down. And it has for awhile. Yet, here we are....still. We are all healthy. We have a roof over our head and food on our table. I get to earn a living without leaving our home and while raising my girls. But it still feels like a very important part of me is becoming smaller and smaller as each year passes.

I try and stem the flow. I grow a little bit in order to preserve a little bit.
But I want more. I want wide open skies. And quiet nights.
And I want less. I want less to be more.
Yes I do.


  1. Check the mls listings for the Ottawa Valley! I can imagine a little bit of what you feel, after just 10 months of living in Belfast...I know my heart is here in wide-open spaces. It's hard to be patient when you feel yourself shrinking away...

  2. I feel the exact. same. way. : )

  3. Oh I am so sorry you are feeling this way, and actually I really understand too. We do live in the mountains, small town, but the particular place we are now has neighbors much too close, not enough land for our horses or a big enough garden (thankfully we get to have that nearby), and not enough trees to love as my own. So grateful for the home, but also it breaks my heart, it does not feel right. I am trying to trust that it is right for now though, and trying to be patient...
    Wishing you peace and happiness and your wide open spaces!